On Feb the 10th 1987 I was told I would be dead in a year. This book of lies exposing the truths. This is my story, from my point of view with harsh revelations and very few pleasant realities. Nothing will be hidden from the world when the pages are all turned. This will be a shock to some and a joy to no one. Once the lies are all exposed, I expect some friends and family will never speak to me again. It was defense mechanisms to cover the truths. Living with HIV when I was diagnosed came with stigma, fear and shame. I didn't mean to hurt anyone, but once the lie was in place it stayed in play. Surviving many others who have gone before me in spite of my own self.